Monday, March 30, 2009

My New Number and My "Strange" Status

I have lost 4 lbs since last Monday! Bringing my grand total to 14.2 pounds lost! Yay! So my weight is now 166.8, only 6.8 pounds to go until I do a giveaway. My goal for today was 165, and honestly after my weigh in last week I didn't think I would even be down this low today. So I'm excited!

Yesterday in Bible study we were talking about "strange" things that God might ask us to do, well things that may seem strange to us anyway. You know like when he asked Gideon to fight thousands with only 300 men and they totally kicked butt, and didn't lose one single soldier! Or when Joshua and the children of Israel just walked around the walls and they fell down flat to the ground. Or when he asked Noah to build a GIANT boat on dry land, in a time when it had probably never ever rained!

Strange requests from God usually always mean something great is going to happen. If you think about it all the "heroes" of the Bible were asked to do "strange" things. And I got to thinking about that, and ya know if God isn't asking us to do "strange" things, it's either that we aren't listening, or He doesn't ask us because He knows we wouldn't do them and we aren't "hero" material. I want to be "strange" for Him. I don't want to live an ordinary life, I want to do those things that people will ask each other what in the world is she doing now! We are called to be a "strange" people, so let's do it, let's be strange together!

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Good News

is coming on Monday! I couldn't help it and weighed myself today and the number is good! I'm so pumped to now lose the rest of this weight. Maybe I will even lose another pound by Monday! The giveaway number is getting closer so stay tuned!

Friday, March 27, 2009


Actually it hasn't been a bad week, but Friday's are just, well Friday's! I *think* I will have a good number to report on Monday. I weighed yesterday, Thursday's are my days with my workout buddy when we weigh and do a workout. And I had lost some, again finally! I think I figured out what I was doing wrong, so hopefully back on the right track!

Our church is showing the move "Fireproof" tonight at church, very exciting! I am in childcare, I've already seen it so I volunteered to keep the kiddos, but will still be fun cause I will be doing it with friends! Everything is better with friends.

So if I don't get back here before Monday, I've been kinda busy this week, I will be here for the big weigh in! I'm actually looking forward to it this time! (I think!)

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Week 4, day 2

I didn't get a post done yesterday, the day got quite busy and just sort of got away from me. So my weight loss was nothing to get excited about, but here goes. I lost .4 lbs, woopee! At least I didn't gain, but still that's depressing. So I took yesterday and went over my plan and found some ways that I needed to tweak it a little. I had been doing good on my low carb, but after the first two weeks I had let my guard down a little and was eating too many things with artificial sweeteners in them, which that is never good for you, not drinking enough water and not eating enough veggies. So I am ready for another week, and hopefully will have better results next Monday. I'm recharged and ready to go!

Me and a couple friends of mine are going to take a group golf lesson here soon, which will be so fun. I like to golf, but am just not very good at it, so maybe now I will be able to actually compete when I play, I do like to win ya know.

Easter will be here soon, one of my most favorite days of the year. What a victorious day for the world, Jesus defeat of death and sin. Of course everyday should be a celebration of that as a Christian, something I need to work on! And of course the day to break out new pretty spring dresses and clothes. I got the girls matching dresses from Children's place, and they are going to look super adorable, can't wait to take their pics. Gabe will of course look super cute too, but let's face it boys clothes just aren't that exciting, lol! I will have three more weeks of weight loss under my belt, if I can lose 5-10 more pounds I would like to get a new pair of shoes and a nice shirt, so we will see.

Happy Tuesday all!

Sunday, March 22, 2009

One big ~sigh~

Nothing much to write about today. As I am typing I am listening to my 2 year old and 4 year old scream, scratch and hiss at each other, ugh! Oh somebody please tell me the bickering goes away as they get older. Somebody? PLEASE?! Don't tell me that it gets worse like it did when I was a kid and bickered with my younger sister 24 hours a day, please don't tell me that. Because I don't think my paper thin nerves can handle that kind of overwhelming information right now. If I remember one thing my parents told me when I was a kid it was to stop fighting with my sister ~sigh~ Paybacks a, well you know what it is, right?

I am not feeling very confident about my weigh in tomorrow. I just might be throwing myself a pity party instead of a happy dance. Why is it anything worth having is hard work? Can't something worth having, just once, be easy? Having a twinkie sure isn't hard work, and it's worth having, imo, but the pounds it packs on sure aren't worth a darn nickel! ~sigh~ I'm done sighing, I'm going to put said bickering children down for a nap and then I am going to have myself a good old fashioned Sunday afternoon nap as well I think! Be back tomorrow.

Saturday, March 21, 2009

She's a super dooper pooper!

So not sure if my weigh in on Monday will be very exciting or not. I feel like I haven't lost any weight :( I had to weigh on Thursday, I weigh mid week with a friend, and I had lost maybe 1/2 a pound. ~sigh~ I have been hovering around the 170/171 mark all week, I was at 170.2 on Thursday, and man I want to break that 170 mark so bad. I really guzzled the water yesterday and watched my eating really closely to make sure I was doing everything just right. Tomorrow is my day of rest from working out. Sunday is my only day off, from working out, not from monitoring my carbs. So hopefully by Monday I will be below 170, if I'm not, I am really going to be discouraged.

So here's another Gwenny story. She was napping, so I thought. I heard her, and went to check on her and walked in and she said "poop". And oh the smell. She had pooped, then taken her diaper off and little poop balls were laying in her bed, and she had also pee'd on her sheets. First time that has happened to me, hard to believe with three kids, but true. Oh the child, she just leaves us speechless. She is such a well of surprises. Lucky me!

Friday, March 20, 2009

She's a Plundering Fool

Since I last blogged Gwenny has taken the opportunity to get into the drawer in the bathroom where I keep my maxi pads and panti liners and open all of them up and leave them on the bathroom floor, and get out the blank dvd's Donny uses to copy things to and scatter them all over the dining room floor. The girl is a mess waiting to happen. My other two children were not like this. Kayleigh was an angel in every way, and Gabe was no angel, he leaned a little toward the devilish side alot, a fact which worried me, but he never plundered! So she drives me crazy with her exploration. We do in fact lock most drawers and cabinets to keep her out, she just happens to know which ones we have not gotten to yet, wise little girl!

I have now been walking everyday for three weeks so I decided to start trying to gradually work some running in to the routine. Holy Cramp! I am no runner that is for sure. I ran for a total of maybe 8 minutes today, and I split that into two chunks amidst my walking. I am going to forge ahead though because I can just feel the fat melting off when I run! I just have to literally get through the running with sheer will power 'cause it ain't easy. I am now walking at 3.7 miles an hour for 45 minutes to an hour a day and that is quite a brisk pace let me tell ya!

I have decided that my goal for a giveaway is 160 lbs., so I hope it happens quickly. As of this past Monday I was 11 away from that, so keep tuning in to find out when the I hit that magic number. My ultimate goal is 145, so I might do another one when I reach that goal, and I should really make it a doosy 'cause I am going to have to work super hard to get there! Happy Friday everyone!

Thursday, March 19, 2009


I had the first experience of someone asking me what I had been doing to lose weight because I looked great! That makes me feel better than any number on the scale can. Don't get me wrong, that number still matters to me, ALOT!

Van got fixed, cost $750, puke! But I am thankful that we have a fan to fix! Gotta look at the bright side.

I realized yesterday that I don't write about the kids much. It's not because I don't love 'em like crazy. To be honest I'm really not sure why I don't. I guess I should write more about how Gwen cannot be left unattended in a room that has anything at all in it that she isn't supposed to have, because I swear the girl is a hound dog. She can sniff out a highlighter or my makeup, even if it were in a concrete vault! I sure hope highlighter ink is non toxic 'cause that's what she had for a snack this morning :( Ever see those commercials where the mom says about her son that it'll be a miracle if he lives to be ___, and puts a certain age in the blank. That is what we say about Gwen all the time, I swear the girl would eat poop if I let her, ugh!

Wow, I really have been blogging much more lately, and it is very therapeutic gotta say. Might be boring for everyone else, but feels good for me.

Speaking of anyone else, if there is possibly anyone who reads this blog besides my best friend and a few "cyber" friends, please say "hi" so that I can check out your blogs too! Love making friends!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Week 3 day 3

So we have been excercising and eating right for about 2 1/2 weeks now, and it really has flown by! I am so happy that we have started and stuck with it! I have pretty much gotten past the point of craving things I shouldn't have. Occasionally I will have one, but nothing I can't handle. I am not going to weigh myself again until Monday, I am determined to stay off that scale. Usually I will weigh myself first thing in the morning and I didn't do that today, so off to a good start.

On another note, we have to take the van to the shop today. It has been leaking a tiny bit of oil. UGH, I hate vehicle maintenance, it is so expensive! And when you aren't made of money, like us, it is so stressful! I am always nervous when we get the call and they tell us how much it's gonna be. Praying it is something minor, but Donny says oil leaks are never good ~sigh~.

Gonna walk in the park today instead of the treadmill, Donny is off work today so I get a "break". I jumped on the trampoline with the kids yesterday evening, for fun and to burn a few extra calories, and man is that a workout! I would do it for like one minute, then have to rest, then do another minute, then rest. But it was fun and something I can do with the kiddos.

I have decided that I am going to set a goal weight and when I reach that goal, I am going to reward myself and the 2 people that read my blog, ha, by doing a give away. I've never done one before, but wanted to. So I will figure that out and let ya know soon.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Stupid scale

Ok, I know you are not supposed to weigh everyday when you are trying to lose weight. But I never was one to always do what I'm told, so I have been weighing much too often. And I pay for it too. Because we all know that weight fluctuates a couple of pounds at any given time of the day, and it is so dang depressing for the scale to show more on it today than it did yesterday morning! I know it's not unusual and doesn't mean I have gained any weight, it is frustrating none the less. I have to stop doing that!

Now my "official" weight that I use when writing down my weight loss, I do at the same time of day, so hopefully it's pretty accurate. Off to do the torture I call the treadmill!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Drum roll please....

I have lost 10 pounds! I am so serious when I say this, that nothing I can eat can make me feel this good! I am on cloud 9! I worked so hard the last couple of weeks, and to see these great results is more than I could have hoped for! I have at least 20 more to go, and then I would like to work on 10 more after that, but the next 20 are the priority. Lots of work still ahead, and I know even though today is a euphoric day, I will have bad days ahead, so I have to stay focused and plow ahead! Let's roll!

Sunday, March 15, 2009


are great! They are my most favorite day of the week I think. I love getting to go to church, yes I said "getting to go" not "having to go", it's a privilege to get to go to our wonderful church and worship with fellow church goers whom I love dearly! Then it's out to eat and home to rest. Which most of the time means a nap, but sometimes just a sit in the recliner for an hour. This day has been the same for me my whole entire life, it's something that has never changed, the routine, not the location, which has changed many times, and I love that! Right now the kids are playing outside in the wonderful 60 degree sunshiny weather, while Donny enjoys our new cushiony patio set, doesn't get any better than that! God is good, all the time! And I mean that through the bad times too!

I am super excited to weigh in the morning and post my weight loss! Even if no one reads this, it will feel so good to type it out. And I am so excited to keep going, results are a fabulous motivator. If I keep losing like this I will reach my goal in way less time than I gave myself! And THAT is something worth blogging aboout!

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Week 2 day 6

I walked in the park this morning, even though it was FREEZING! Just trying to keep from getting bored of walking on the treadmill everyday. I weighed myself today, but not going to blog what I've lost until Monday, hoping that maybe I'll lose some more between now and then. I am starting to notice the weight loss in inches, cannot wait until I walk into a room and someone says, WOW you've lost weight haven't you, that will be so worth all this!

Thursday, March 12, 2009


I'm not sure why, but the beginning of the week is so easy to get through as far as eating right, excercise and weight loss is concerned. Then for some weird reason come about Thursday/Friday and I start feeling discouraged, disheartened, depressed and feeling like I am not making any progress. Why is that? I really don't have a clue.

Of course if I stepped on the scale today and saw that I had lost another 5 lbs, I would be ecstatic. But we all know that isn't going to happen. I gotta say on days like this, doing any kind of lifestyle change/excercese regime really bites. I feel like the thought of it consumes me, and I can think of nothing else all day. It's a drudgery and I am just muscling my way through the day. I don't have the compulsion to cheat, but my heart just isn't in it.

On good days I am excited, and happy to be doing it. I have lots of energy and a positive outlook. ~sigh~ I think one thing that gets me down, sometimes even on good days, is knowing it is going to take months to get the body I want. My goal is three months. Which I know isn't that long compared to the two years I have been putting on the weight! The road ahead just seems so long. One day at a time, one day at a time, that is what I keep telling myself!

Even on the bad days I have no desire to quit. That thought hasn't even crossed my mind. I am NOT going to let food and laziness get in the way of feeling good about myself and having enough energy to be a great mom to my kids and to be the temple God intended my body to be for Him! It is shameful and a sin that I have not taken better care of it! No more though, only victory for me from now on. With the help of my Saviour!

More pics

Some more pics of the house.

This is the dining room, looking into it from the living room. As you will notice I took some of these pictures in the fall and some in December, notice the stockings :)

This is the living room, looking in from the front door to your left.
Standing in front of the tv looking at the door.

View from the dining room into living room.

Our small kitchen.

And Gabes room. Excuse the mess on his top bunk. I use it to throw anything that I am going to put in a garage sale onto his bed until I have time to tote it and mark it.

I found this dresser at a rummage sale for $20 and repainted it myself!

A few more rooms left, will try to get those up tomorrow.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Some pics of the house

Finally, if anyone is interested, here are the pics from our "new" house. Well it was new (to us) when we moved in 7 months ago!

These are of mine and Donny's room and the upstairs bathroom.

These are of the girls room.

Will post more (hopefully) tomorrow.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009


Not a very catchy blog title, I know, but don't have anything catchy to say really. My life is so normal right now, and I don't feel that I am one of these creative writers who can make funny stuff out of nothing, and my kids haven't done anything really "blog" worthy lately, so I don't really have much to say. Back in the summer when my life was total chaos I could have written books, but I am GLAD that time is over!

Eating right and excercising still going well. Yesterday I did my cardio in the morning then played volleyball last night, so I technically got 2 workouts yesterday, which is awesome! Not going to weight myself today, although it is sooo hard to resist that temptation. I want immediate results, but that also makes me discouraged when I don't lose any weight from the day before. Unrealistic expectations I know, but I can't help it, I'm a perfectionist.

Today it is going to be in the 70's again, so I am going to walk in the part instead of on the treadmill since Donny is home. Gotta take advantage of that!

Gotta get through another day of laundry, the thorn in my flesh, cooking and cleaning up 3 meals and any other housework I can fit in between wiping butts and noses and breaking up fights and reading Barney and spiderman books. Sounds like a great Tuesday to me, how about you?

Monday, March 9, 2009

Week 2, Day 1

It's amazing how much difference 12 hours makes. Last night I was feeling defeated and today I feel pretty good. Knowing that I lost 5 lbs. the first week might have something to do with that. I need to "trust the process", if you have watched "The Biggest Loser" you know what I mean. I am still really tired, but did my workout already, despite this also being day 1 of "the curse". So I say that's a successful day so far.

I have decided to try to write my thoughts out on here, hopefully every day, and track my progress, so I can look back and remember how hard this is, so that I don't let myself go in the future so I don't have to freakin' do this again!

I am going to weigh myself every Monday and Friday, I just cannot go a whole week without peeking, would drive me nuts.

I cannot wait for this pooch and my "love handles" to be gone. I really wish they wouldn't call them that, they don't make me feel "love"ly or "love"able or "love"ing. Anyway, off to eat a healthy lunch!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Weighing in

I know it's been forever since I last blogged. If everyone has forgotten about me I totally understand. I am posting now for me, so if no one reads, not a big deal.

Donny and I started Atkins last Monday. I am now 180 lbs. OH, I am so ashamed to admit that. I am 5' 8", so 180 on me isn't as bad as 180 on someone who is 5'3", but I am overweight for the first time in my life, and it makes me sick. When we got married, 12 years ago, I think I weighed around 130. Now that technically is below what is recommended for someone my height to weigh, and I admit I was too skinny. But, believe me or not, that was my natural weight. I ate like a horse all the time, no dieting for me. Got married, gained 20 pounds, was at probably my ideal weight. Had 2 kids, still skinny. Had Gwennie at age 33, and my body wasn't able to bounce back naturally this time. Eating whole boxes of fudge rounds doesn't help either.

We bought a treadmill, got it in on Saturday, and started eating right and working out on Monday. Donny has gained alot of weight as well since we got married, so he said he would do it too. I was soooo excited after the first three days, I had lost 3 pounds and had lots of energy, I had gotten over cravings and was feeling great. Now I feel lousy. I am exhausted, which can happen when you cut back on carbs, and craving EVERYTHING I can't have, and am freaking out because I haven't lost any more weight. Ok, I know you aren't supposed to weigh yourself very often when you are dieting, but I can't help myself! And I know if I just lose 3 pounds a week, it will only take me 10 weeks to get down to 150, which isn't bad. I haven't cheated on my eating YET, and I haven't skipped out or cut back on my cardio. I'm gonna lose this weight come hell or high water. It just sucks!

I am so mad at myself for letting my body get this out of control. And mad that I can let food control my life. I'm scared that my body won't respond as quickly as it did in the past when I have worked to get the last 10 pounds of baby weight off. I am tired of eating the same things everyday. Did I mention that I am mad! But also mad in a good way, it is fueling my determination to hang in there. The song "The voice of truth" don't know if that is the title, or who sings it, keeps going through my head. It has become my theme song in my battle.

So, it's been one week tomorrow. I have to just get through another day. One day at a time! That has been my mantra through the baby stages of no sleep, and got me through that, surely it can get me through this too. Self, hang in there. It will be sooo worth it in 3 months, when I am (hopefully) 30 pounds lighter. ~sigh~